One of those days where I just wanna leave my house and get a babysitter because I want to be by myself. My kids are driving me insane, and its just another day that is a lot harder without him. My heart cries out I need you, yet God hears me and gives me strength. But the strength dont stop me from missing him and needing him. I just can’t do this alone and neither can they. They really need their father just as much as I do. My head is going to explode if I have to yell at the kids again. Never ask for patience because God will give you a situation to test your patience and bring it higher so that you have a limit of patience. #tested #sad #lonely #abandoned
It came the day I feared. The day where he would go back to jail and leave me alone with ours kids. My mind battles with my heart telling me if he would have just stayed at the halfway house and finished his time I wouldn’t be here. But then again God tells me “were you in his shoes to know how he felt without his family?” and that is why he left. I get it Father I understand and maybe your doing this to glorify yourself. I believe in you God and you are never deaf to hear my cries. Neither your arm to short to be able to reach out to catch me because I feel like I’m going to fall. So I believe that you are the highest judge, and the highest lawyer and have his case in your hands and you will work out to your favor. I know that my tears are not in vane God and you will do something, because in my hurt and in my trial something has to occur. I proclaim victory, and your glory and blessings showering over my home, ministry, and family. Amen
When I got out the car, looking at him from far, I had the butterflies just like I did when we were in middle school. Being married to the man I have had a crush since I was 11 years old. 11 years later and here I am and that man for now 4 years has been my husband. A lot of things happened. Mistakes and bad decision making. But everything was forgiven and we’ve been working past it. And for God’s glory everything is better then it was before. I don’t even want to imagine what my life would be without him. I was even scared to give him a kiss. After not seeing him for 2 years it felt like we were dating all over again. I had to get to know him all over again and refresh my memory of every single detail about him. and so far its been GREAT.